Sometimes it's hard to be a woman

...but this has nothing to do with standing by your man. quite the reverse - it's time of the month and i'm feeling super-grizzly. the fact that i am having a period at all makes me angry and resentful because not menstruating was the best thing about being pregnant and having a baby and breastfeeding (after actually having the baby i guess). worse still, i used to have super-light, regular-as-clockwork-every-28-days, no-problem-at-all periods but now i can't tell when they're coming. my pmt seems to last for days (dp would joke it starts as soon as my period ends but i wouldn't be laughing) and i seem to be on a 5-6 week cycle. when they do start they are those awful heavy, crampy, painful, nightmarish ones where i feel as if i'm wading through treacle and my brain turns to fudge and my body feels twice as heavy and i feel just empty and vacant, not to mention IN PAIN. i took some mefenamic acid about an hour ago and it's done nothing, nada, zip, zero, sweet f.a. so far.

the other reason why i'm in such a pissy mood is that it's the semis of the carling cup, tottenham v. arsenal, and i just watched us go 2-0 down as Baptista scored an OWN GOAL. what a fucking tragedy. and there's no Thierry Henry on the bench to save us either, so we need a miracle. i can't bear watching.

and it snowed last night so it's eff cold.